It's six in the morning...I haven't been to sleep yet. This is not right. I'm not entirely sure why I'm still awake, I feel very tired. I tried to sleep, but felt like I was going to get a panic attack. Probably because I was thinking about something I shouldn't.
Anyway, I was talking to that one person I shouldn't because every time I do I get so angry I have to step back and take a few deep breaths. He was complaining to me like an emo again. About an ex no less. So this time I finally told him, look you're hurt I get it, but I've had to deal with some stuff too and I don't see how this is so bad. I am of course talking about the rather difficult year of grade 12. To make a long story short it had to do with my mother she wasn't exactly herself a lot of the time and I still find it hard to talk about. Anyway when I left for university I was under the impressioin that she wasn't going to be there at Christmas. I told him this, and he comes back with:
Yes, I understand that was probably difficult, but relationships are about being human.
Umm...what? My mother dying actually has nothing to do with me being human? I mean...I've known her my whole life...hell she practically raised me! :P
I'm not saying that I've had the worst problems of anyone anywhere, I'm just saying I think that is a little tougher to go through than a bad break up. Maybe I'm wrong and if I am well I'll certainly shut up and stop complaining.
Other than that, there isn't a whole lot going on. For some reason a friend of mine thought it would be fun if we went to the mall. On a friday evening. I wasn't pleased, there were a lot of preteens there as usual and they all look the same. We both sat with coffee saying we certainly hoped we were never like that when we were that age.
Things just seem a little different now, only slightly with age. Now instead of thinking 'yeah this is normal for kids my age to do' now I find myself saying "aren't they a little young for that?'. For example, there were three girls, probably around 11-12 and one of them said 'fuck' and I was surprised. Not sure why, I said fuck all the time when I was that age. To be quite honest it scared me. Soon I'm going to be telling them to turn down their music 0_O .
Getting older does scare me a bit. Mostly because I still pretty much act like a kid, and I certainly do not feel ready to be out in the 'real world'. Talking to family though makes me feel a little better. Saying things like, why grow up? That's no fun. Or it's only a number. I said to my dad the day I find a grey hair is the day I have a breakdown. He said "Why? It's only a colour, look how many I have!" And proceeded to dance to a singing moose. Maybe there's hope yet.
Oh, and the reason for the title is simple, I'm tired so my mind isn't clear, and it's a combination of a simpsons quote and an incident in metalocalypse...I just wanted to make things more interesting...I know I know...epic fail. Well, I think I hear M up for work, maybe I should try to sleep now and not panic for no reason :P
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
More drunks and an Australian...
I know I just made a post yesterday, but I figured I would post this while it was still fresh in my mind. So, everything seemed normal when I went to bed last night, put on some music to lull me to sleep. The Gladiator soundtrack actually, it's very beautiful music I'll listen to anything Hans Zimmer has had a hand in. Anyway, it ended and I was still awake so when I went to turn off the computer there were two bars lit up. One was a drunken friend whom I have not had contact with since before Christmas for reasons I won't bore you with here, and the other the main event of this story was that someone had added me to their msn.
Now I was not surprised completely by this because I had given my email out to someone earlier in the day. After I accepted I saw the name Matthew and thought...well that doesn't seem right. Mostly because I was positive the person I gave my email to was named James. So of course curiosity got the better of me, it always does and I said hello. He said "Oh hey! I added you by accident earlier. You have a similar address to my niece. Sorry."
To which I responded, "oh, that's ok. No worries." and exited the window expecting a deletion. Instead he asked, "Are you from Australia?"
"No, Canada."
"oh wow! haha!"
....yes.
So we exchanged pleasentries, how are things? How's the weather? That same ol' stuff.
Then he asked, "How old are you? I'm probably twice your age." I paused for a minute....should I keep talking to this random Australian? Why not? Seems strange enough that my address would be the one he added. I answered, and he said "...yeah...i'm 46." *embarrassed smiley*
I should have just stopped it there but...no...I'm not smart enough to listen to my gut. He sent me a sound clip saying hello, I thought that was kinda neat. Then he asked me to see him on webcam. At this point I was like...I'm going to see something being slapped around aren't I?
Of course I accepted the invite, and there he was, fully clothed just sitting at the computer. I continued the conversation by asking what he did for a living. He said he was a highschool teacher. Fair enough. Then he asked if I minded if he used the microphone and stopped typing. I said sure. He got his guitar and asked what kind of music I liked. I told him, and he played some and sang. I started to relax, thinking, hey this is kinda cool. He then asked where my webcam was. I said not with me, then asked if I had any more pictures, again I said no.
He went on to say, "Well I'd like to see what there is after the hair, how long is your hair?"
Did I shut down the convo there and then? Pfft are you kidding? Of course not. I said about to the bottom of my ribs. "How tall are you?" again I answered. "Aw you're just a shorty, cute."
Ha...haha... "Bet you got a nice bottom on you."
Oh dear.
Well, things went on from there and he was soon without clothes and...umm...yeah.
I'm not going into detail, but most words uttered after that involved him saying along the lines of "You have to earn that grade." O_O
After I was trying to go to sleep, but then I turned on my light sat up and said. "What the fuck?!"
Now I know I didn't stop it, because curiosity got the better of me as it always does. I just thought it was so, weird and random and...the fuck? Haha, oh well it was entertaining to say the least. That's all I got for now...
Now I was not surprised completely by this because I had given my email out to someone earlier in the day. After I accepted I saw the name Matthew and thought...well that doesn't seem right. Mostly because I was positive the person I gave my email to was named James. So of course curiosity got the better of me, it always does and I said hello. He said "Oh hey! I added you by accident earlier. You have a similar address to my niece. Sorry."
To which I responded, "oh, that's ok. No worries." and exited the window expecting a deletion. Instead he asked, "Are you from Australia?"
"No, Canada."
"oh wow! haha!"
....yes.
So we exchanged pleasentries, how are things? How's the weather? That same ol' stuff.
Then he asked, "How old are you? I'm probably twice your age." I paused for a minute....should I keep talking to this random Australian? Why not? Seems strange enough that my address would be the one he added. I answered, and he said "...yeah...i'm 46." *embarrassed smiley*
I should have just stopped it there but...no...I'm not smart enough to listen to my gut. He sent me a sound clip saying hello, I thought that was kinda neat. Then he asked me to see him on webcam. At this point I was like...I'm going to see something being slapped around aren't I?
Of course I accepted the invite, and there he was, fully clothed just sitting at the computer. I continued the conversation by asking what he did for a living. He said he was a highschool teacher. Fair enough. Then he asked if I minded if he used the microphone and stopped typing. I said sure. He got his guitar and asked what kind of music I liked. I told him, and he played some and sang. I started to relax, thinking, hey this is kinda cool. He then asked where my webcam was. I said not with me, then asked if I had any more pictures, again I said no.
He went on to say, "Well I'd like to see what there is after the hair, how long is your hair?"
Did I shut down the convo there and then? Pfft are you kidding? Of course not. I said about to the bottom of my ribs. "How tall are you?" again I answered. "Aw you're just a shorty, cute."
Ha...haha... "Bet you got a nice bottom on you."
Oh dear.
Well, things went on from there and he was soon without clothes and...umm...yeah.
I'm not going into detail, but most words uttered after that involved him saying along the lines of "You have to earn that grade." O_O
After I was trying to go to sleep, but then I turned on my light sat up and said. "What the fuck?!"
Now I know I didn't stop it, because curiosity got the better of me as it always does. I just thought it was so, weird and random and...the fuck? Haha, oh well it was entertaining to say the least. That's all I got for now...
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Alone today...and then there was a drunk...
With two roommates gone and one at work I had the house to myself for a couple of hours, which was a welcome change from being followed or having my whereabouts known at all times. I took advantage of my alone time and of course did the cliche dancing around in my underwear. It was nice to do that outside my room for once. I also got some dishes washed and in shaun of the dead style I figured things would go similar to this:
Me: well aren't you going to thank me?
Rm: For what?
Me: For cleaning up
Rm: Doesn't look that clean...
Me: Well I had a couple of beers when I finished...
Speaking of a couple of beers, a friend of ours just walked in...completely...and utterly, drunk as a lemur. That's right, the one that is never drunk...is giggling like a school girl. I have never laughed so hard in my life. For the first time ever, I have seen Crowly drunk. I think that's how you spell his name...anyway it's hilarious I wish I could document this in something other than a blog...dear lord all I can hear is giggling from the bathroom... looks like it's going to be a fun night. Awesome he's dancing now.
Anyway, other than that exciting bit of information, in my time alone I also took a bath, and found I shouldn't be aloud to think that much. I started thinking of the past four years... Awesome he's dancing now. Throughout this entire entry I'm giving updates. Cause this is just awesome...he also yelled at the tv, saying "Fuck you George!" Seinfeld is on. Again, spelling, I don't know.
Anyway, yes the past four years...thinking of different things I have experienced. The whole residence thing was quite the experience...
He now can't deal with Harrison Ford staring at him. (I have a cardboard cutout of Indiana Jones in my room.)
Residence, experience right...so he called my computer a pimpjuice machine. Mostly because there's a pimpjuice sticker on it.
You know what? Forget my original thoughts, I'm just going to keep on the drunk Crowly watch.
He said, "wake fun of him"
Now explains that he hates being drunk and not in control of his shit (i.e. his speech) also says: fuck Luke Skywalker.
He was also convinced he was a ninja because he is currently wearing a pink ribbon around his head. He's afraid that he is a gay ninja.
This will go down as one of the funniest nights I have ever experienced.
He also threw someone in a snowbank...they are apparently best buddies.
He got mad at me for looking at his chest. I guess I'm a pervert.
He also keeps saying that he can't wait for me to make fun of him for the next year, so really this is more for me than it is for you.
Sadly he seemed to have calmed down since Monty Python and the Holy Grail is on. He's mesmerized. So, since I am greatly distracted I'm ending it here, I'm sure there will be more to report next time.
Laters! :P
Me: well aren't you going to thank me?
Rm: For what?
Me: For cleaning up
Rm: Doesn't look that clean...
Me: Well I had a couple of beers when I finished...
Speaking of a couple of beers, a friend of ours just walked in...completely...and utterly, drunk as a lemur. That's right, the one that is never drunk...is giggling like a school girl. I have never laughed so hard in my life. For the first time ever, I have seen Crowly drunk. I think that's how you spell his name...anyway it's hilarious I wish I could document this in something other than a blog...dear lord all I can hear is giggling from the bathroom... looks like it's going to be a fun night. Awesome he's dancing now.
Anyway, other than that exciting bit of information, in my time alone I also took a bath, and found I shouldn't be aloud to think that much. I started thinking of the past four years... Awesome he's dancing now. Throughout this entire entry I'm giving updates. Cause this is just awesome...he also yelled at the tv, saying "Fuck you George!" Seinfeld is on. Again, spelling, I don't know.
Anyway, yes the past four years...thinking of different things I have experienced. The whole residence thing was quite the experience...
He now can't deal with Harrison Ford staring at him. (I have a cardboard cutout of Indiana Jones in my room.)
Residence, experience right...so he called my computer a pimpjuice machine. Mostly because there's a pimpjuice sticker on it.
You know what? Forget my original thoughts, I'm just going to keep on the drunk Crowly watch.
He said, "wake fun of him"
Now explains that he hates being drunk and not in control of his shit (i.e. his speech) also says: fuck Luke Skywalker.
He was also convinced he was a ninja because he is currently wearing a pink ribbon around his head. He's afraid that he is a gay ninja.
This will go down as one of the funniest nights I have ever experienced.
He also threw someone in a snowbank...they are apparently best buddies.
He got mad at me for looking at his chest. I guess I'm a pervert.
He also keeps saying that he can't wait for me to make fun of him for the next year, so really this is more for me than it is for you.
Sadly he seemed to have calmed down since Monty Python and the Holy Grail is on. He's mesmerized. So, since I am greatly distracted I'm ending it here, I'm sure there will be more to report next time.
Laters! :P
Thursday, February 19, 2009
So...
As my university career goes on and I meet more and more people, I seem to notice more and more that on a large scale I don't seem to fit. I touched on this a little in an earlier post but that seemed to be more general.
Now, I can get along with people fine, all types of people. I also find that on average, which I'm sure along with everyone else, I have at least one thing in common with everyone I meet. This largely goes with feelings are certain subjects or with video games or something. However, talking to people it seems that being a hermit is something that is different from most people my age. I don't really like going to bars or parties even. However, if I do go I usually have a half decent time. I just find that I am awkward around people, like I haven't socially developed properly.
This largely stems from my lack of venturing away from home throughout most of my life, but I think that blurb is for another time.
Where I seem to find myself being different are in the usual places. For example music.
Now mainly I listen to the 'heavier' bands such as Godsmack and Dethklok. Mostly I am met with, 'never heard of them.' That's ok though because with music there's a lot I do like and can compromise when it comes to hanging out in a common area.
Another area I find that I'm by myself is T.V. A lot of the shows I watch others do not. This could by attributed to the fact that a lot are from britain or are cartoons. However, that doesn't mean that the friends I have now won't like the shows I like if given the chance. It just seems that I am met a lot with 'never heard of it.' Or I hear, I've heard of it but never saw it. Fair enough. Such shows as Spaced, The Mighty Boosh, Frisky Dingo, Metalocalypse, and Sealab 2021. Most of the cartoons are found on adult swim.
Video games are similar. I find that there are a lot more female gamers that I thought, but usually their game choices are predictable. Final Fantasy for example is very common. Personally I can't stand the storylines most of the time so avoid them. Myself, I enjoy a wide variety of games, rpgs, fighting, first person shooters, and the music ones.
A roommate even commented one time that I was very 'male' in the way I acted in a situation. I believe the words "Dude....gay." were uttered while I sat slouched on a chair with legs wide open. This was not the first time I noticed my actions being not typically female. Hanging out in a friends basement I belched quite loudly cause one of the guys to yell "MIKE!" to which he defended himself saying that it was me. It seems I have earned an unofficial nicname of 'the female guts' it hasn't caught on and I'm kinda happy about it. Another incident was when I was back in residence. I had gain a single/double room and was enjoying it by eating an orange. In a wife beater, without pants, and a hat. When the orange was gone I looked down and thought to myself, well this is just insane.
Yet, I am quite happy with not being giggly, not only wanting to go shopping for 'cute tops' and for not freaking out if I walk out without make up. I'm happy I don't like the colour pink, and prefer skulls over kittens...even though kittens are pretty awesome... Sometimes I find it hard to act like a girl, or like things that other girls like, often becomming embarrassed. I shouldn't because I am a girl. I know that for certain I just showered and I checked. For the most part though I just can't bring myself to say "You know what? I like unicorns." (Which reminds me, I really want to see the movie Legend again).
What I have been able to admit though is that I love the movie The Princess Bride. I thought it was a big step until I learned that most nerds love that movie. Therefore it was completely normal for me to like it too. Oh well, win some lose some.
...I sound gender confused. I'm not, I know I'm female and I know I like males that part in my head is clear. It's mostly the, who do I hang out with that is bothering me, especially when trying to make new friends. Well, I can barely keep my eyes open, and the song Awaken is doing nothing to help that. Plus I think my annoying rantings have gone on long enough. You know half the time I think I start on one idea but completely change it right away and start on something else...
Now, I can get along with people fine, all types of people. I also find that on average, which I'm sure along with everyone else, I have at least one thing in common with everyone I meet. This largely goes with feelings are certain subjects or with video games or something. However, talking to people it seems that being a hermit is something that is different from most people my age. I don't really like going to bars or parties even. However, if I do go I usually have a half decent time. I just find that I am awkward around people, like I haven't socially developed properly.
This largely stems from my lack of venturing away from home throughout most of my life, but I think that blurb is for another time.
Where I seem to find myself being different are in the usual places. For example music.
Now mainly I listen to the 'heavier' bands such as Godsmack and Dethklok. Mostly I am met with, 'never heard of them.' That's ok though because with music there's a lot I do like and can compromise when it comes to hanging out in a common area.
Another area I find that I'm by myself is T.V. A lot of the shows I watch others do not. This could by attributed to the fact that a lot are from britain or are cartoons. However, that doesn't mean that the friends I have now won't like the shows I like if given the chance. It just seems that I am met a lot with 'never heard of it.' Or I hear, I've heard of it but never saw it. Fair enough. Such shows as Spaced, The Mighty Boosh, Frisky Dingo, Metalocalypse, and Sealab 2021. Most of the cartoons are found on adult swim.
Video games are similar. I find that there are a lot more female gamers that I thought, but usually their game choices are predictable. Final Fantasy for example is very common. Personally I can't stand the storylines most of the time so avoid them. Myself, I enjoy a wide variety of games, rpgs, fighting, first person shooters, and the music ones.
A roommate even commented one time that I was very 'male' in the way I acted in a situation. I believe the words "Dude....gay." were uttered while I sat slouched on a chair with legs wide open. This was not the first time I noticed my actions being not typically female. Hanging out in a friends basement I belched quite loudly cause one of the guys to yell "MIKE!" to which he defended himself saying that it was me. It seems I have earned an unofficial nicname of 'the female guts' it hasn't caught on and I'm kinda happy about it. Another incident was when I was back in residence. I had gain a single/double room and was enjoying it by eating an orange. In a wife beater, without pants, and a hat. When the orange was gone I looked down and thought to myself, well this is just insane.
Yet, I am quite happy with not being giggly, not only wanting to go shopping for 'cute tops' and for not freaking out if I walk out without make up. I'm happy I don't like the colour pink, and prefer skulls over kittens...even though kittens are pretty awesome... Sometimes I find it hard to act like a girl, or like things that other girls like, often becomming embarrassed. I shouldn't because I am a girl. I know that for certain I just showered and I checked. For the most part though I just can't bring myself to say "You know what? I like unicorns." (Which reminds me, I really want to see the movie Legend again).
What I have been able to admit though is that I love the movie The Princess Bride. I thought it was a big step until I learned that most nerds love that movie. Therefore it was completely normal for me to like it too. Oh well, win some lose some.
...I sound gender confused. I'm not, I know I'm female and I know I like males that part in my head is clear. It's mostly the, who do I hang out with that is bothering me, especially when trying to make new friends. Well, I can barely keep my eyes open, and the song Awaken is doing nothing to help that. Plus I think my annoying rantings have gone on long enough. You know half the time I think I start on one idea but completely change it right away and start on something else...
Monday, February 16, 2009
Ha
So, I actually did have a pretty good vday. Had some beer, and watched shaun of the dead. Can't go wrong with that. I've been feeling pretty good for the past couple of days as well (knock on wood) so that is a real plus. I'm starting to get my willingness to do things back and that is a good thing.
One of my roommates got GH world tour, so that of course helps out. She only got the game though not the whole set up which I understand. It's pretty decent, there are a couple of songs on there that I like that are not on RB2 so they are fun to play, but I find GH a lot easier. I'm also not a fan of the gh guitar. I'm very aware I'm using a plastic guitar. At least with rb I forget and think I'm cool for a couple of minutes.
Midterm break is almost here, and of course right now I'm thinking I'll use that time to catch up on some school work. Then the realistic part of me butts in and says come on now. You're going to get drunk and play video games and chat with random people online. Yes, that is probably going to be true. But I'll have to study a little between drinks.
Now all I can think of is charging my ipod...I actually do have class today and it doesn't look like there are sidewalks anymore because there was snow yesterday and last night. That means I have to take the long way. Actually it doesn't matter what way I take they're all long because all my classes are in Queen's collage which is on the exact opposite side of campus and the furthest away from everything. Just goes to show that archaeologests and their students get no respect.
"Where will our arch. department be? In the middle of everything?"
"Nah, they like being in the middle of no where for a living, let's stick them over here away from civilization."
Dicks
There is a bathroom in the 'lab' though. That's pretty convienent, and a shower in the bathroom upstairs. Also makes me wonder how long they keep the grad students there. O.o
Also, I find lately I've been looking at tattoos more. I have one, but have wanted another for a very long time. Now I'm just trying to decide what, and where. I enjoy symbols more than actual things. For example, the tattoo I have is an Egyptian eye or Eye of Horus. So, instead of getting Horus himself, I got the eye. Originally I was going to get Anubis but it would have had to be huge. However I'm much happier with the eye. So in deciding what else I want I wonder should I maybe keep with the Egyptian stuff. I saw a picture of someone with an Egyptian goddess on her back with open wings and everything, it looked really nice, but on one shoulder she had a celtic knot in the middle of a wing! I was like, why would you do that? At least put it somewhere else. So I'm skeptical about getting something not egyptian on my back...at the same time it might work I don't really know. If the reasons for getting a certain tattoo are good it shouldn't really matter where but some thought should be put in postitioning. I think anyway.
So I've been throwing around some ideas in my head. I was thinking of getting a wolf of some kind, but a friend of mine just got one of a wolf and basically ruined it for me. I sort of want to get something to symbolize strength but I don't want to get kanji or anything. That's just too common. For a very long while I wanted a zelda one. Like the royal family's symbol that's on link's shield. The triforce with the wings, only have the black light ink under it either in a sunburst type way or outlined. Yes I have thought about this for awhile. I looked online a bit more and thought maybe a symbol off one of the madallions from OOT, or of one of the races from Hyrule or something. I don't know though...Sure I'm in love with that game now but will I still be in a couple of years? Good chance yes but you never know. There are a lot of celtic symbols I like as well and of course dragons and the like. If anyone has any ideas about what could represent strength I'd be happy to hear them, or read them. Already someone said a bear, but I can't picture myself with a bear tattoo...maybe a bear print...but again it's all really up in the air.
Well I really should be getting ready for class instead of worrying about tattoos, laters :P
One of my roommates got GH world tour, so that of course helps out. She only got the game though not the whole set up which I understand. It's pretty decent, there are a couple of songs on there that I like that are not on RB2 so they are fun to play, but I find GH a lot easier. I'm also not a fan of the gh guitar. I'm very aware I'm using a plastic guitar. At least with rb I forget and think I'm cool for a couple of minutes.
Midterm break is almost here, and of course right now I'm thinking I'll use that time to catch up on some school work. Then the realistic part of me butts in and says come on now. You're going to get drunk and play video games and chat with random people online. Yes, that is probably going to be true. But I'll have to study a little between drinks.
Now all I can think of is charging my ipod...I actually do have class today and it doesn't look like there are sidewalks anymore because there was snow yesterday and last night. That means I have to take the long way. Actually it doesn't matter what way I take they're all long because all my classes are in Queen's collage which is on the exact opposite side of campus and the furthest away from everything. Just goes to show that archaeologests and their students get no respect.
"Where will our arch. department be? In the middle of everything?"
"Nah, they like being in the middle of no where for a living, let's stick them over here away from civilization."
Dicks
There is a bathroom in the 'lab' though. That's pretty convienent, and a shower in the bathroom upstairs. Also makes me wonder how long they keep the grad students there. O.o
Also, I find lately I've been looking at tattoos more. I have one, but have wanted another for a very long time. Now I'm just trying to decide what, and where. I enjoy symbols more than actual things. For example, the tattoo I have is an Egyptian eye or Eye of Horus. So, instead of getting Horus himself, I got the eye. Originally I was going to get Anubis but it would have had to be huge. However I'm much happier with the eye. So in deciding what else I want I wonder should I maybe keep with the Egyptian stuff. I saw a picture of someone with an Egyptian goddess on her back with open wings and everything, it looked really nice, but on one shoulder she had a celtic knot in the middle of a wing! I was like, why would you do that? At least put it somewhere else. So I'm skeptical about getting something not egyptian on my back...at the same time it might work I don't really know. If the reasons for getting a certain tattoo are good it shouldn't really matter where but some thought should be put in postitioning. I think anyway.
So I've been throwing around some ideas in my head. I was thinking of getting a wolf of some kind, but a friend of mine just got one of a wolf and basically ruined it for me. I sort of want to get something to symbolize strength but I don't want to get kanji or anything. That's just too common. For a very long while I wanted a zelda one. Like the royal family's symbol that's on link's shield. The triforce with the wings, only have the black light ink under it either in a sunburst type way or outlined. Yes I have thought about this for awhile. I looked online a bit more and thought maybe a symbol off one of the madallions from OOT, or of one of the races from Hyrule or something. I don't know though...Sure I'm in love with that game now but will I still be in a couple of years? Good chance yes but you never know. There are a lot of celtic symbols I like as well and of course dragons and the like. If anyone has any ideas about what could represent strength I'd be happy to hear them, or read them. Already someone said a bear, but I can't picture myself with a bear tattoo...maybe a bear print...but again it's all really up in the air.
Well I really should be getting ready for class instead of worrying about tattoos, laters :P
Friday, February 6, 2009
Pfft...
I can't think of any clever titles so I'm stuck with random noises I make. I'm finding more and more difficult to come up with something to type here. Mainly because my activity level has dropped to near zero. It's not that I don't want to do something, it's just too cold. Outside, and inside which is a real piss off.
I've been trying to think of something to do that I would get really excited about. Nothing really comes to mind though. Maybe I'll get back to painting. Once I start then maybe it'll give me that jump start my brain needs.
Hung out with a couple of people from outside the house the other day. It doesn't really count though because I didn't move from the couch. Anyway, I've asked one of them to take a look at my external harddrive since it stopped working over Christmas. I now know, it's a shiny paperweight. So everything on it, my cartoons, tv shows, music, what-have-you...is all gone. And I can't start downloading it all again because there is no space left on my laptop at all...and no one is making me part from Peggle to download Black's Books again. Even though it's a fantastic show.
Looking at the calendar I noticed that the flamingos pictured were making a heart with their necks and beaks...then I noticed the month. Valentine's day is coming...yay. That is the most un-enthused I am able to make that 'yay' look. I was never a big fan of Valentine's day. Except in elementry when we got most of the day off to make holders and pass out valentines and shit. Another thing I hate is when I say I'm not a fan people say "you're only bitter because your single on Valentine's."
No...no....no... I just don't think a particular day should mean that some guy has to by me flowers in order to make me feel like I owe him and he gets a bj. (yes I'm aware that's not how all people view it and it's not just that). If I did have a boyfriend at the time of this 'holiday' I would be perfectly content to say "Hey, Valentine's is coming up....so...you know....leave me the fuck alone."
Maybe I'm just weird. I dunno. I guess if he was persistant enough I would settle for a gaming session...
Anyway, I just hate all the mass produced stuff that's supposed to make a person feel 'special' when it's given to them. How does something that potentially everyone else has make someone feel special? Special just like everyone else :P
I'm pretty tired today, therefore not in the best of moves...and even worse, the brain work not good. I also notice that I bitch way too much, I probably say this once a post but that's only because it's true. Every time I try to stop though, I end up bitching more. I just like to think that there's a lot more to my personality than just...bitchiness...even though that's a big part :P
Oh, and now for something completely different, I was playing Sacred again yesterday and I found a new thing to like, and a new thing to hate. First off, you know how you play these games sometimes and you're quest entails you to escort someone somewhere? You also know how much of a pain in the ass these are then. Mainly because the person you are escorting is completely usless and can't or won't use a weapon to help you out, and/or they are completely retarded and walk in front of you when you're shooting, or slashing, or run into the middle of a group of enemies and stand there saying help me while being beaten. Well, in Sacred the person you are escorting will help if they are able, or run away if they aren't. So, they don't get killed or in the way. Plus, if you die while escorting them, when you continue you end up where your quest began (which is usually where they have to go) and the person is still with you. Therefore, it's quicker to just die.
What I don't like however is the map. It's great for quests but when I'm trying to find a way to an objective it's near impossible. It's not detailed enough to show me where openings are or cliffs so I'm stuck running around like an idiot trying to find a way out of the lava...field...thing...I don't know what it's called.
I also couldn't help but think about how metal my horse looked. He's black with red eyes and has a blade on each shoulder. And his gear has spikes and skulls all over it. Awesome. (again can't remember if i put that in already).
Anywho, I get to eat today and I'm pretty excited about that. So...later. :P
I've been trying to think of something to do that I would get really excited about. Nothing really comes to mind though. Maybe I'll get back to painting. Once I start then maybe it'll give me that jump start my brain needs.
Hung out with a couple of people from outside the house the other day. It doesn't really count though because I didn't move from the couch. Anyway, I've asked one of them to take a look at my external harddrive since it stopped working over Christmas. I now know, it's a shiny paperweight. So everything on it, my cartoons, tv shows, music, what-have-you...is all gone. And I can't start downloading it all again because there is no space left on my laptop at all...and no one is making me part from Peggle to download Black's Books again. Even though it's a fantastic show.
Looking at the calendar I noticed that the flamingos pictured were making a heart with their necks and beaks...then I noticed the month. Valentine's day is coming...yay. That is the most un-enthused I am able to make that 'yay' look. I was never a big fan of Valentine's day. Except in elementry when we got most of the day off to make holders and pass out valentines and shit. Another thing I hate is when I say I'm not a fan people say "you're only bitter because your single on Valentine's."
No...no....no... I just don't think a particular day should mean that some guy has to by me flowers in order to make me feel like I owe him and he gets a bj. (yes I'm aware that's not how all people view it and it's not just that). If I did have a boyfriend at the time of this 'holiday' I would be perfectly content to say "Hey, Valentine's is coming up....so...you know....leave me the fuck alone."
Maybe I'm just weird. I dunno. I guess if he was persistant enough I would settle for a gaming session...
Anyway, I just hate all the mass produced stuff that's supposed to make a person feel 'special' when it's given to them. How does something that potentially everyone else has make someone feel special? Special just like everyone else :P
I'm pretty tired today, therefore not in the best of moves...and even worse, the brain work not good. I also notice that I bitch way too much, I probably say this once a post but that's only because it's true. Every time I try to stop though, I end up bitching more. I just like to think that there's a lot more to my personality than just...bitchiness...even though that's a big part :P
Oh, and now for something completely different, I was playing Sacred again yesterday and I found a new thing to like, and a new thing to hate. First off, you know how you play these games sometimes and you're quest entails you to escort someone somewhere? You also know how much of a pain in the ass these are then. Mainly because the person you are escorting is completely usless and can't or won't use a weapon to help you out, and/or they are completely retarded and walk in front of you when you're shooting, or slashing, or run into the middle of a group of enemies and stand there saying help me while being beaten. Well, in Sacred the person you are escorting will help if they are able, or run away if they aren't. So, they don't get killed or in the way. Plus, if you die while escorting them, when you continue you end up where your quest began (which is usually where they have to go) and the person is still with you. Therefore, it's quicker to just die.
What I don't like however is the map. It's great for quests but when I'm trying to find a way to an objective it's near impossible. It's not detailed enough to show me where openings are or cliffs so I'm stuck running around like an idiot trying to find a way out of the lava...field...thing...I don't know what it's called.
I also couldn't help but think about how metal my horse looked. He's black with red eyes and has a blade on each shoulder. And his gear has spikes and skulls all over it. Awesome. (again can't remember if i put that in already).
Anywho, I get to eat today and I'm pretty excited about that. So...later. :P
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