So...

As my university career goes on and I meet more and more people, I seem to notice more and more that on a large scale I don't seem to fit. I touched on this a little in an earlier post but that seemed to be more general.
Now, I can get along with people fine, all types of people. I also find that on average, which I'm sure along with everyone else, I have at least one thing in common with everyone I meet. This largely goes with feelings are certain subjects or with video games or something. However, talking to people it seems that being a hermit is something that is different from most people my age. I don't really like going to bars or parties even. However, if I do go I usually have a half decent time. I just find that I am awkward around people, like I haven't socially developed properly.
This largely stems from my lack of venturing away from home throughout most of my life, but I think that blurb is for another time.

Where I seem to find myself being different are in the usual places. For example music.
Now mainly I listen to the 'heavier' bands such as Godsmack and Dethklok. Mostly I am met with, 'never heard of them.' That's ok though because with music there's a lot I do like and can compromise when it comes to hanging out in a common area.
Another area I find that I'm by myself is T.V. A lot of the shows I watch others do not. This could by attributed to the fact that a lot are from britain or are cartoons. However, that doesn't mean that the friends I have now won't like the shows I like if given the chance. It just seems that I am met a lot with 'never heard of it.' Or I hear, I've heard of it but never saw it. Fair enough. Such shows as Spaced, The Mighty Boosh, Frisky Dingo, Metalocalypse, and Sealab 2021. Most of the cartoons are found on adult swim.

Video games are similar. I find that there are a lot more female gamers that I thought, but usually their game choices are predictable. Final Fantasy for example is very common. Personally I can't stand the storylines most of the time so avoid them. Myself, I enjoy a wide variety of games, rpgs, fighting, first person shooters, and the music ones.

A roommate even commented one time that I was very 'male' in the way I acted in a situation. I believe the words "Dude....gay." were uttered while I sat slouched on a chair with legs wide open. This was not the first time I noticed my actions being not typically female. Hanging out in a friends basement I belched quite loudly cause one of the guys to yell "MIKE!" to which he defended himself saying that it was me. It seems I have earned an unofficial nicname of 'the female guts' it hasn't caught on and I'm kinda happy about it. Another incident was when I was back in residence. I had gain a single/double room and was enjoying it by eating an orange. In a wife beater, without pants, and a hat. When the orange was gone I looked down and thought to myself, well this is just insane.

Yet, I am quite happy with not being giggly, not only wanting to go shopping for 'cute tops' and for not freaking out if I walk out without make up. I'm happy I don't like the colour pink, and prefer skulls over kittens...even though kittens are pretty awesome... Sometimes I find it hard to act like a girl, or like things that other girls like, often becomming embarrassed. I shouldn't because I am a girl. I know that for certain I just showered and I checked. For the most part though I just can't bring myself to say "You know what? I like unicorns." (Which reminds me, I really want to see the movie Legend again).
What I have been able to admit though is that I love the movie The Princess Bride. I thought it was a big step until I learned that most nerds love that movie. Therefore it was completely normal for me to like it too. Oh well, win some lose some.

...I sound gender confused. I'm not, I know I'm female and I know I like males that part in my head is clear. It's mostly the, who do I hang out with that is bothering me, especially when trying to make new friends. Well, I can barely keep my eyes open, and the song Awaken is doing nothing to help that. Plus I think my annoying rantings have gone on long enough. You know half the time I think I start on one idea but completely change it right away and start on something else...